Sunday, August 3, 2008

Ignorance is bliss

When are going to walk off the cliff and we do not know of the steep fall from there is ignorance a bliss then. Would we still be walking if there is nothing under us. If we are ignorant of the fall could we still walk on?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Mariah Carey's latest

Mariah Carey latest album is entitled E=MC²
Emancipation equals Mariah Carey to the second power, that's what the album title means.

The songs in this album gets better and better towards the end of the track. The song that I love most in terms of arrangement and rhythmn is "I wish you well". I am always a sucker for songs sung with just the human voice and piano and this song did the trick.

At first examination of the lyrics I thought that Mariah was singing about someone else. But when I look and heard it a few more times I realize that she was singing about herself.

The part about the enemy within is about us. In this song she illustrates beautifully and truthfully about how we always condemn ourselves and thus causes frequent self guilt and hate.


Which is so true. Contrary to her previous album which Mariah sang about the Hero in me, there is also the enemy within us which makes us captive to ourselves. Hence E=MC² became the title of this album perhaps an emancipation from self guilt and hate.

Once we are emancipated from the negative thoughts then ourselves can truly shine and we can manifest the second power. Otherwise we will be timid and lack self confidence for the rest of our life.

I think that a lot of people feel that this song speaks to them as well because in one website a total of 19,719 views were recorded for this lyrics. Way to go Mariah!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Hancock the man

My two cents on Hancock

Who is tired of watching superheroes movie, raise up their hand. I can see a whole lot of hands out there and I understand why cause two of my hands are raised and waving wildly. Same plot , same old story... yawn, *tears rolling down my cheeks*

Hancock saves the day by bringing a refreshing change from typical movies about heroes who only want to do good to a super human (I can't call him a hero cause he doesn't act like a typical one) who couldn't care less.

Like the woman who is only attracted to the sexy bad boy read Justin Timberlake and Elvis Presley , I am attracted to Hancock.

It is quite miraculous that nobody gets killed which makes this movie an easy watch. And there is a lot of holes of you are the nitty gritty kinda audience. But you gotta be relieved that they hide the gore and bloody mess.

Instead you get to enjoy the fantastic view of ginormous infrastucture and materials being damaged by Hancock's intentional clumsiness. Yummy ... my eyes enjoy the superb effects.

I think another person deserving of credit from the movie is the little but not so innocent child in the movie. He looks like the boy from Home Improvement only more crude and sarcastic. I like the way he told Hancock off. Man.. he is really adorable. Should be given a larger role in the movie. Bet some talent hunter are going to hire him for their next movie and he will be catapulted to stardom.

Beats me why they call this movie Hancock though. I couldn't recall the title the first time I saw it to be able to strike a conversation with my friends about it. Instead I labelled it the new Will Smith movie. Aside from that I can't wait to watch this movie and share a good belly laugh with my homies.

FAQ answered
i) Who plays the eponymous character in the movie Hancock?
Answer: Duh.... Will Smith
ii) In a bid to save a ______, Hancock heaves it out to sea, only to see it smash a sailboat.
Answer: Whale

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Along Pvt Ltd

Have you ever eaten something that tasted horrible and yet it is also pleasant at the same time that instead of spitting it out you swallow it instead and felt really satisfied afterwards.

That is the feeling that I got with locally made show Along. One thing I can say is that the film is really gruesome because they used so much tomato paste for blood. I was squirming in my seat 90% of the time. And at the same time I also had to laugh and it was bad enough having to squirm and laugh.

There was the scene where the man was badly injured and blood was everywhere but the way the injury was inflicted is so comedious that it tickled my sense of humour and it was hard for me to stifled.

I guess there is this conscience within me that arouse the guilty feeling in me and causes me to feel bad cause I laugh when there are blood all around. It makes me seem as though I am a sadist and I didn't like that feeling.

Making small of violence is one thing, and making violence seem humorous can cause someone to inflict griveous injury to someone else without knowing what he is doing.

It's like the person has become immune or habutuate to violence that it may seem like it is nothing to inflict it on someone else. Parent's caution should be exercise when they bring their children along

Friday, February 15, 2008

Rich man

In psalms 49, it talks about rich man and why should we poor people not envy them. Reason number one is that we all die in the end and we cannot bring our wealth to the grave or the after life (for those of us who believe in that)

I can see the point of view. However if one were not to believe in the after life, one would want maximum pleasures from life here on earth.

And since what is sure is what we have now. It can be really hard for us not to be envious of those who are born with a silver spoon in their mouth.

Ok let's refocus for a while and try to extract the message that the Psalmist is trying to convey.

1. Envy is no good
2. All man both rich and poor have the same ending
3. What matters will be taught in the following Psalms
4. Riches are not security even here on earth, the richess can be taken away by catastrophe, unexpected events.
5. This is not to say that we should not work hard to gain riches. On the contrary one should be wise in managing money and good investmest is admirable. The truth is that we should not put our hopes in these material thing.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Learning mandarin

Today I tried a new Chinese Phrase I learned online with my Chinese Speaking roomate. Even after I repeated it 3 times to her she looked at me as though I have grown another head. Perhaps my intonation was incorrect and therefore she thought that I was speaking Hindi instead of Mandarin.

Or perhaps the word that I used was not commonly used even among the Chinese speaking community. I can't write down the words here because I don't even know the correct Han Yu Pin Yin. But the word means unprecedented in English.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Guilty as charge

Adam and Eve felt it after they had eaten the forbidden fruit
Cain felt it after he killed Abel
David felt it after he committed adultery with Bethsheba
Judas felt it after he betrayed Jesus
Joseph brothers felt it after they sold him of as a slave
Saul felt it after he tried to kill David
Solomon felt it after he married unbelievers
Peter felt it after he betrayed Jesus 3 times
Moses felt it after he lose his patients with the Israelites
I felt it when I purposedly being stubborn decide to pursue something without consulting God

Feeling of embarassment, feeling like there is no turning back. Feeling like wanting to bury ourselves and hibernate for the rest of our remaining years left on earth.
We all feel the bruden of guilt after we have done something wrong. As child when have done wrong I could never bluff my way out. My face would go red and I would stammer.


The feeling that we are cut of from God. The feeling that even the death on the cross cannot redeem us from this wrong that we have committed.

And sometimes this feeling cause us to stray further. To look for some other solution like self help books, shopping and spending compulsively, hanging out with the wrong crowd, sleeping tablets, psychotherapy.

The Bible seems dry, too theorethical, unpractical and not culturally adaptable to the situation in which we are in.

Praying seems like something that we are no worthy of doing because of guilt and talking to God is like a one sided conversation in which we give up after 30 seconds

The feeling so bad that it feels like life perhaps is not worth living anymore

They say that when you hit rock bottom you have no where to go but up. In reality sometimes there is no bottom. You just fall down and down and it's like a never ending hell.

If you don't realize it soon enough the deeper you will be in this pit. Until one day even when you wake up and realize you have made a mistake it is too late and you are stuck and still falling in this pit forever with no one being able to hear your cry for help or to even save you.

I tried pushing the limit to see how much deeper I can fall into this pit. I wanted to go up but I was not yet ready. I wanted my own way and hence dug my own grave.

6 foot under and at the verge of burying myself, my friends did hear my call for help. I talked to them , cried to them, complained to them, listen to them (not so much of listening though)

I am feeling quite fine now but ocassionally have some break down. I think of talking to God sometime and do talk to him but only for a few seconds and my mind drifts of.

One day I hope that I can look back and not have this feeling anymore. For the moment amnesia seem to elude me and a couple of hours of sleep.

One day I will be healed.

In Psalms 40 which is my favourite Psalms right now, it states how the Lord treats those who are disobedient and have repented and it is consoling to know that our God is one who gives second chances.

When I make a mistake I always like to start from a clean slate. I don't like going back to the old product and try to correct it. Less troublesome or so I thought.

But when I make a mitake, I am not the corrector, but God is and he does not try with another human being and forget about me. He still wants to work with me the dirty slate

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Mummy... yummy

Now we all know that breastmilk is the best food for infants. Not for onen species called the caecilian. These young caecilian will feed of the mother's skin. Not that it is sacrificial. Hey this is natural facial for the mother. And the babes are doing it for her for no cost.

We female humans need to pay a few hundred bucks for facial. Now why can our new born also feed on our skin so that we get brand new skin for show.

It is observed that the mummy cecilian skin becomes more nutrituous and thicker when she gives birth. Perhaps one reason is that she does not have breast to give mild so this is kind of like a breasfeeding process by another name. Call it skin feeding if you may.

Unlike mammals , the young cecilian already have teeth .. ouch when you think of it. And if you google it and find the picture you will be totally gross out.

But it is definitely mother nature at work and I am at awe

Things that don't taste so good

As we grow up , we learn to enjoy food that we dislike when we were young. We gobble up that brocolli which we used to try and feed our dogs with. Second helpings of celery are very much welcomed.

Does this also happens in other aspect of life? Bittersweet experience become part of who we are and is something that we brag about.
Sad events becomes a milestone in our story that we will pass on to our grandchildren.
Stories of delinquencies are told during dinnertimes to wide eyed listeners.

All the parts of our life is one tapestry woven to perfection by our maker. Though we make mistakes and unravel the cloth sometimes the Maker is still in control and continues weaving.

I do wonder sometimes if I make such a big blooper in my life that it cannot be woven again . That I even sabotage my life so badly with wrong decisions and stubborness that there is no turning back. I hope not and there is promise of redemption in the Bible. You are not too bad to be redeem.

In Psalms139, the Psalmist narrates on how God form him with great meticulousness and precision. And then he gave credit to God for makng such a wonderful human being - that being him or maybe her (Sometimes I think this part of Psalms is written by a woman)
That sound quite humourous and egoistic when I first read it. It seems to me like the Psalmist was proud of himself.

Later it dawned upon me that every individual need to be proud of who they are. And this pride should come from the knowledge and truth that God has made us perfect!
If this pride is attributed to something else then it is an error

Some people sometimes seems so confident and a lot of people envy them. This confidence may seem valuable but because it lies in themselves. I have no knowledge to write about this and I shall speak no more of this matter.

I just have faith that confidence in God is the right thing to do as of now.

Cooking class to curb obesity??

Recently on BBC news, I read with amusement that the Brits are gonna make cooking class compulsary in school.

This is an effort to teach those young uns' the basics of healthy cooking so that they do not have to revert to fast food everytime mom works late.


But I do wonder how feasible this implemantation is going to be. Cooking takes time and not all individuals like cooking even if they do have the skills to do it.

Appropiate research should be done to find out if the kids really are ignorant about cooking.

How about increasing the price of fast food or even pass the law so that outlets can only serve healthy dish to those under 21. Those who insist on fast food would have to show their ID to prove that they are of age.

Another brilliant idea would originate from Singapore. In this squeaky clean country cigareete boxes would depict picture of cancerous body part unwhet the appetite of smokers. The same could be done for fast food packets showing obese individuals / blocked arteries / other ailments.
On second thought seeing how effective those gross cigarette boxes were I seriously doubt thios method wil pull through.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

The good and the bad

Try and remember 3 good people in your life.
Now try and recall 3 people whom you dislike.

Which was easier. If you are anything like me it would be the second one.

Why is it that it is easier to remember the bad than the good.
We tend to gossip and spread rumours about something that is negative because it is more juicy.
When you gather with people do you gushed about the good qualities of a person or do you skew towards the side of complaining and grumbling.

Do you give thanks because it is good weather? Or do you find yourself groan everytime it starts pouring?

When good things happen we don't really notice or exclaim. But when bad things happen our mouth starts lamenting the so called catastrophe.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Honesty is the best policy

Bluffing is not an option. When faced with a tricky, difficult question people tend to evade telling the truth if it means hurting their livelihood, pride or cause an emotional loss to them.

The Bible states that The Truth will set you free. It is very easy to take this verse out of context and use it to our own convenience. However we have to always be shrewd - acute or sharp in practical matters. We are not bluntly honest but wise in telling the truth

We also have to bear in mind that the way the world works is more complicated and we got to use our brain communicating something we think is the truth

I for one am a frank, straightforward person. If I dislike something, someone I will let them know without running around the bush. Most people would think that is naive.

I don't tell the person that I hate them or anything that depressing . What I actually do is to lessen my frequency of contact with them. After all why spend time with a person who is displeasing to you and does not do any good for your emotional health.

What about if someone ask you if something looks nice. Why tell them it does when it doesn;t

If your boss had an idea, will you such up to him and praise him to the heavens stating that you think the idea is the best you ever heard and gush over it or do you let him know what is in your mind tha the idea is trash in a more gentle way.

That's me previously.

Now I have become a more complex thinker. I prefer that term to open mindedness as it denotes that one was wrong in the past. But my thinking was not in error. It was a point of growth that I had to go through in order to come to the stage that I am now

Taken to the extreme, honesty without tack can do more harm than good. Though I admire frankness, I know understand why subtlety is necessary for self defence in conversation most of the time


Should someone ask me if she looks fat, I would tell him (most likely her) that I am not too sure. I would say she look great and ask her back if she has weight herself recently. Throw back the question at her and she will have to answer herself. Why should I tell her something that is so obvious to hersl\elf

Of course the goal of the conversation is also important to decide whether or not to be honest.

Honesty cause you to be vulnerable. The information that you share could be use against you. So it is wise to practise caution in what you reveal. Remember that everyone have skeletons in their cupboard and it is not good to bare it if these truths if it will harm you or others.

On the other side of the coin, honesty can cause another person to let down their defense system and also be honest with you. the principle of reciprocity works here.


The past. It is best to keep mum about the past especially if it is not something pleasant. Best not to medidate. Bet you thought meditation is only the silent kind. But if you keep on talking about it to others are you not reciting it and thus keeping it ingrain in your being.

Silence and a smile is the next best option to honesty. Let me rephrase that. It depends on the situation. You can put the truth in another way but you cannot twist the truth. One day you would not know whether you are telling a truth and lie and the line between those two has blured and you will live in a deceptive reality.

A lie will surely come back to haunt you

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Joshua

The story of Joshua begins with a biy who is no favourite in his family. Because he was the apple of his father's eye he was outcasted by his brother.
I like the story of Joseph because God was with him in all circumstance and though he might have despaired, he was contented where he was. I don't think that I can be as noble as Joseph.

Even when he was in the prison he could give glory to God. He attributed his talent for interpreting dreams to God instead of taking credit for himself.

Despite being thrown into jail he did not blame God for it instead in put his whole faith in God and just flow with it.

Where is there found a man like Jospeh who was so sure that God would not dessert him. Even when faced with the king and his impossible request, Jacob remained calm and testify that God would help him to interpret the dream. Joseph dare testify because he knows that God will not leave him all alone with no idea what the dream is about. He must have walked right with God.

Celery

If you cook celery long enough with ABC soup, the disgusting taste will disappear and it becomes eatable.

Now I can declare myself a fan or celery...muahahah... I think I am going crazy over vegetables

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Bittergourd

If you boil bittergourd long enough with dried dates, very soon you will have sweet bittegourd. The bitterness will have disappeared and even the soup taste sweet and not a hint of bitterness.

So it is with life when things go sour or when you have a very bad experience, take heart that things can take a turn for the better. When you feel like throwing in the tower, don't . Chins up, straighthen your back and force a smile. Don't be in denial though.

Admit the reality of the situation. Admit your embarrassment, failures, mistakes. This is a cliche, but it is the only way. Analyze the situation and think of how you can go from there.

Recently a friend of mine had the misfortune of being dumped by a guy. She was so badly affected that she cried every day and it affected every aspect of her life. Her life was bitter at that point of time and it seems that no amount of prune can make it sweet again.

I also thought that it was over for her too. The wasy she handle the situation was terrible. She refuses to go out with anyone. Kept to herself, overeat and overspend and she looked like an aunty. Indeed I have not seen anyone go downhill any faster.

However, she realize her mistake soon enough. One day she woke up and decide that she was going to boil prunes and I mean seriously pick up the remaining valueble pieces of her life and do something meaningful with it. She decided to go out and take a new course. She looked her best in every time I see her. She indulges in healthy habits instead of destructive ones which might lead her to bankruptcy.

Her life is indeed now sweet

I was amaze at this change in her. It was like a Chinese drama. So I asked her what is it that change her. Honestly she said she still is hung over by the bad experience in the past. But slowly the negative emotions are dissipating . It requires discipline...I agree.

So when bad things happen don't make it worse by meditating and thinking of it. It is ok to cry. Cry as much as you one cause there will come a day when you would think about this as a minor incident.

There are great things awaiting for you in the future. Boil the bitttergourd with prunes and add in some herbs for good measure.

Remember and be thankful that you have friends who will fight with you the good fight in life.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Volumetrics

In my quest to improve my diet, I stumble across this diet plan called volumetrics. This is not as famous as Atkins and weightwatchers and I wonder why so because it has a lot of positive review.

The theory is that if you are full you would not overeat. Therefore you can lose/mantain your weight by filling yourself with low energy density food such as vegetables and soups.

One person commented that this diet kept her sane. Unlike the other diet which focus on calorie counting and restricting oneself, I think this diet is quite logical as well as practical. After all don't people ditch diet because they feel hungry.

This is a diet that requires little self control because if you are already full there need not be much control on your side to restrain from eating. Physically your body will reject the thought of any food. Psychologically the feeling of fullness will overcome your craving for any unhealthy snack.

Even if you cave in , you will feel like throwing up after the first bite of that tasty dessert because you have already eaten healthily and satisfyingly. Trust me , I've been through it

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

It's nice cooking for myself

I have always shunned cooking before this because I thought it was tedious and burdensome. I would use lack of time as an excuse for eating out. Also I am afraid that I will grow fat because I will only cook for myself and most likely have to eat everything myself.

However, today I turn totally into a new leaf. I suddenly feel the urge to cook so strongly. I wonder it is premature maternity instinct.

So toda, though I came back late at 9 pm... I cooked chicken soup with vegetables and had it for supper and it really felt good. Which is really different from the me last time.

Last time I would think how nice it would be if someone were to cook for me. Now I thought how nice it was that I have the ability to cook for myself.

Of course it would be fun to have someone to share and enjoy my cooking with me. But it would be the same level of satisfaction... no more no less.

Besides that I am also quite sick of outside food. Everytime it is the same thing.

Furthermore I do not want to end up with diabetes or high blood pressure anytime before 50 or at any age for that matter.

The dish that I prepare are devoid of salt and sugar and yet they taste incredible. Just the basic ingredients... ummm... yummy. My saliva is just drooling as I am writing this.

My mind is thinking of opening a restaurant... But that will remain a dream.

I think if I keep this up I can live up to 200. Muahahaha

Dark place

Today when I was walking back through a dark shadowy alley , I saw a couple dating in an obscure place.
I ask myself the question why does the girl have no self respect. Why does she allow the guy to bring her to such a place which is so cheap. It is so obvious the guy does not have any good intention towards her.

On the guy's part, why does he not give the girl the respect that she deserves by bringing her to a place with more class.

Of course at that point of time the couple seem to be engaged in a harmless conversation which is probably about babies, the future or whatever it is couples share to bond.

But the talking can only last so long. I bet in a few minutes after I have gone, they will be snogging.

At the risk of sounding self righteous, I totally am against spending time one to one especially in dark places. Though I confess to have broken the rule more than I care for. But I was no wiser back then.

Perhaps the longing for intimacy is the thing that drives these youngsters together to such unhealthy activity. However is it worth it? Is the experience a must?

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Thanksgiving

Thanks for the friends that I have in church
Thanks that I get to celebrate 2 of my sisters birthday today
Thanks for the cheap but delicious birthday cake
Thanks for the friend who took a few hours to repair my computer but expect nothing in return
Thanks for my great room mate
Thanks that I finally came back to church
Thanks for the delicious dinner

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Facebook

Recently I relented to followinig most of my friends and registered on facebook. Which is not such a bad thing bacause it allows me connection with friends far and near and it also has it good function.

I will not be surprise in the future should employers want to hire they will check out the profile of the prospect on facebook just to make sure the person is not borderline psychotic.

Therefore it is advisable for one to make sure that what you place on facebook projects your image positively. It is also important to reveal information that will be to your benefit and does make you look foolish. Information like which part of the world you have been to is something good to brag about on facebook. Information about how you broke up with your ex is a no- no

The relationship part of the facebook was a bit tricky. so I decided to leave that portion untouch. Why do we need to say that we are in a relationship with someone on Facebook. Then the whole world will know when you break up if that happens and it is not something that is easy to reveal to others.

Actually what made me join facebook in the first place was BOREDOM. I was bored to bits and also people have been mentioning this facebook. It can be a bad thing if one spends too much time on facebook checking out on other people's profile. After all the best way to know a person is through face to face conversation.

Well I'lll stick around and see how long this fad will last. I hope they don't invent some other thing for connecting cause it is really a waste of time .

Distress

When cornered, each of us react differently. These are the behaviours which I have observed to manifest in others when they are threatened:
1. Cry
2. Backstab another person
3. Talk to another
4. Shift the blame on another
5. Withdraw
5. Feign ignorance

Manifestation number 2 is the one which puzzled me in the past. However it does not surprise me now was I have seen it happened right in front of my eyes. Because of my personality which is good natured mostly, I always assumed that others are more or less similar to me. But now I have come to terms that people can be very different. If I was black they could be white. And there are things that is beyond my imagination.

What is most important is that I do not look down nor put them beneath me because of this trait which I perceive to be evil and weak. It is better for me to understand this behaviour and not to tread on danger zone of these breed of human beings unless necessary.

After all it is the best to be at peace with everyone and not make enemies. This does not mean trying to please everyone. I might not be able to please someone but still be at peace because I know what I do is the right thing. Someone might think of me as the enemy but as long as I treat the person civilly I am in control of the relationship. Therefore that person is not my enemy regardless of what he wants to think of me

Confidence

I have always admire people with confidence. They believe in themselves. They have dreams and they follow through. They know what they want in life and the steps to be taken to achieve that goal.

Obstacles and distractions are easily overcome by these people. Failures and disppointments does not seem to depress them. When things go rough, they can ride through the storms.

These are the people that I would say have supernatural abilities that exceeds the ability to fly in the air, stop time or predict the future. This is the strength which I covet to possess.

Mass Culture

I came upon an interesting topic today when I talked to the CEO of James Cook University. I was mentioning to him that there are certain courses which student prefer which makes these courses "popular" .

He agreed and also added that popular courses correlates with the occupations which is depicted in the television in series like CSI, ER, The Attorney... so on and so forth.

TV is what makes students flock to study Medicine, Law, Forensics. The shows depicts these jobs as being very interesting and solutions for the daily problems solve within a day. Students might be aware that these are unrealistic but they are still drawn towards these courses because in these movies the characters are charismatic.

I probe my CEO further because I never did thought that TV could have such a big influence on one's ambition in life. He informed me that he did a thesis on this before and the concept of Mass Culture came up.

When I googled for Mass culture I could only find the term popular culture. Popular culture is birthed from society's interaction with mass media especially the television or perhaps You Tube

With the birth of you tube and other forms of downloading devices from the Internet legal or illegal, we cannot excape being exposed to films that appeal to the mass public.

If we are rebelling against this mass culture we will be cast aside as ignorant as there would be no common topic to talk about. If everyone watches Superheroes and I decided to shun it, I would be considered either an anti superhero or just someone who is outdated. I think the latter is more appropriate.

Mass culture can cause one to lose a sense of uniqueness. Everyone is trying to identify with each other and thus the similarity can become so entrench that it merges the whole society into a single unit of actions, behaviours and interest.

If all the high school students wants to go for Medicine, Law , Forensics what happens to the less popular course. Of course a quota will be set for the ones who is inclined to perform well academically. Then the rest who scored below average will have to settle for the less in demand courses and nurse their discontentment.

They would have to face parental nagging for their lack of performance which cause them to not be able to follow the public opinion of what is considered a worthy occupation to pursue.